Shoot The Moon

Getting high! Smoking some dubies ... Trying to get over Darien. It isn't easy at all .......... God, he's sexy; cute; a real fucking HOTTIE! This may not be easy, the getting over! Thing about Darien is that, though they certainly play a favourable part, it goes beyond his good looks. He is a kind caring man, with a stimulating mind. The good side of him is very good. But, oh man, can the guy be NASTY ...!!!

I know I still love him deep in my heart, even though it is a love that came fast. I believe my love is true. After all these years, hopefully I have an idea on my feelings of love. Everything is so deep these days for me.

"Down in the Depth--On the 90th Floor! (Cole Porter)"

He would likely have blocked me on msn messenger. I likely should stay away from him; he doesn't seem to care ... No fucking kidding ... He doesn't deserve a human being of my caliber in his life's path! Yet this love I feel for him seems to be real.

Fucking Aussie-WANNABE asshole creep ... Damn Darien, and the freaking online chat crap that made me fall for him!

Yeah, I admit I can fall pretty easily, but I do have a lot of love to give and a great big caring heart full of compassion and need. OK, so label me STUPID and FOOL for simply being, having human desires ...

I am a GAY MAN, damn it! We have very real urges and desires too! It has been a long lonely path for me ...

Oh my fuck! I think if I had a gun right now I'd have to shoot the moon and the stars for making me a LOVER in the first place, a caring individual ... leaving me receptive to a man and his lies.

Oh, would life not be so much easier if we were without the dumb gene that makes us hungry for love?