I Need Somebody

OMG, I am so fat now!

Help, what am I going to do? Actually, workout? In front of other people?!! Well, actually, if even I was thinking of doing that I certainly do not have the money for a gym. Why bother lie about it anyway? I am still way too shy to expose myself that way. But Lord, I do hope I am able to get more excercise and change my lifestyle. Otherwise I am in for some big trouble, more problems.

For me, moving away from Nova Scotia and back to Toronto where I feel more at ease would be a great thing for morale, and too my physical health. Also, having a man in my life, even just a friend ... now THAT would work wonders!


BTW, JPL is on ABC's One Life To Live, and he rocks ...!

Going The Distance ...

Just caught the tale end of a Canadian Amarican Pie-styled film called Going The Distance. Saw it at least once before but maybe twice. The ummmmmm visuals are stunning.

Canadian actor Shawn Roberts rocks!
(In the film he is the one in the cowboy hat! Yes, his character has some anal fun, but I'm not endorsing such behavior! Hahahaha)

OMF: It just occured to me that he could be the son of handsome Canadian-born news anchor John "J.D." Roberts!!

It's Gonna Be Special (I Hope!)

SOLITUDE
Ok. So I got out of mom's house today at the very last minute. Went to the drugstore! Yeah, that's the excitement for me here in The Middle Of Nowhere where eveything closes at 10 or midnight. I just had to get out though. My life is so so closed-in, in recent years, and since I have been at mom's for 2 to 3 weeks, except for her, the solitude has been even greater. I am trapped at home, trapped by aloneness. At mom's I am trapped by the restraints of her own lifestyle and odd, nagging, but well-intentioned ways.

NO MATTER WHAT?
No matter what I do, it seems I am stuck with being alone, with not finding friends at all. Today, I will admit is another low mood day. Yet these low moods combined with life's ever-changing daily circumstances can add up to me feeling that I am left with a totally HOPELESS future. Which would be easier to accept if of course I had not started off i life with such a promising one ...